See that up there?

 I’ve added that countdown thingy… Oooo.. gerun tu tengok. Another 3 months 1 week and 5 days to go. Scary shit man…

 

Anyway, you’d probably guess by now right, since it took me 3 days to write in about the Drama Competition. We weren’t lucky this year. Guess you just can’t win them all. It’s pretty frustrating when I think back on how much work and effort the students put into it. And when I look back at the recording, I enjoyed it more and understood it more than the other winning schools. Oh well, mungkin kita suka sebab syok sendiri la kot. Ehehe… The students are disappointed and so am I, but need to teach the kids to accept defeat with grace. Teach them to hold their heads up high cause what’s important is that they did their best and had a wonderful time performing. That’s what matters. Kan?

 

It had been a really hectic week this week. Uggh.. glad half of the burden is almost over. I’ve been on duty from Monday to next Friday. That makes it 12 days straight. Working. And who ever said that kerja cikgu ni senang? Half day? Ptui!!!!! Half day my ass. The only thing half in this job is the pay!!!!! I haven’t had a days rest since Monday. Today, we had our PTA meeting and also Hari Kecemerlangan Pelajar. Tomorrow is supposedly a holiday for the school since kitorang keje on Sunday… but not for me!! It’s never that simple for me. Tomorrow, I have to go to Pangkor, for this crappy meeting with the Ministry. Sheesshhh….

 

I just need a break.

 

Or maybe a personal assistant?

 

Or a raise?

 

Can I have all three?

 

 

 

It’s the day of the Drama Competition… and I am at home. The bloody Virtual DJ programme I downloaded expired today. Shite!! And I’m at home downloading a new one on the other laptop. It’s a good thing that we’re the last group to perform. That gives me enough time to download a new one.

 

Arrgghh… why is it taking sooooo long to download?

 

I knew I should’ve checked it last night. Or just downloaded a new as a backup. Shite shite.

 

Another 25 minutes to go… So long!!!!

 

I’m a nervous wreck! Gile nak terberak.

 

They just called me up from the hall… nak cari costume jewelry  lak… mana la aku nak cari weh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am the last person you should ask for jewelry. Ahahah…

 

Shite…

 

69%.

 

Cepatlah sikit!!!!

 

I am DEAD NERVOUS!!!! Rasa mcm jantung ni nak terkeluar dari mulut. Arrghhh….

 

87% and going… c’mon… c’mon…

 

It’s the home stretch now. Faster… faster… That’s it!!

 

And we’re done. Let’s just hope it’s all worth the trouble!

 

Takot!!

It’s been a while since I last wrote here. Haven’t quite been in the mood to write. Too exhausted with work kot? Dunno….

 

Well…

 

Drama Competition is TOMORROW!!!! Takut gilos. Nervous. Gementar. Dan semua yang sewaktu dengannya. It’s even more nerve wrecking because it’s a mini musical, siap dengan menari-menari gitu. Takut the judges don’t get it. Arrghhh… Btw, we’re doing Cinderella : Happily Ever After?

 

So wish us luck….

 

Takot.

 

Will update later….

February is just around the corner. That could only mean one thing… Valentine’s Day. Yep, the big V day is here. So just be prepared to see cupid, hearts, roses, stuffed toys and chocolates everywhere. Here we go…

 

So what’s the big deal with Valentine’s Day anyway? Do we really need to allocate one single day to celebrate your love with your loved one? Why do people make a huge fuss about it? Don’t they get enough love and attention any other day?

 

I have never celebrated Valentine’s Day. It’s not because that I don’t want to, it’s just because I never had the chance to. Out of my 26 years of living, I only had one chance to actually have a relationship during Valentine’s. Even then I failed miserably to come anything close to celebrating it.

 

So for me, I’m not really sure if it’s a case of not believing in Valentine’s or is just some kind of curiosity of the whole idea. A year back it was easy for me to say ‘Bah hum-bug’ to Valentine’s. Mainly because I was as bitter as medicine could ever be. But now, I’m not so sure.

 

Things change, people change.

 

I’m not saying that I want the whole nine yards… the candy, the frou-frou. It’s just the thought. It’s the thought, the effort shown in making that one person feel extra special. It’s just making a point that someone is that special enough to put in that extra thought or something. It’s the idea that most girls are after.

 

Most anti-Valentine-ist say that the celebration of love should happen every other day, and not just on February 14^th. But answer me this: How many times in a year do you take the time to plan an evening with your girlfriend/boyfriend? How many times in a year do you shower her/him with gifts (other than their birthdays)? How many times in a year do you take the time to make her/him feel special?

 

So what is wrong in spending one night and show him/her how special they really are? What harm could it do? It doesn’t even have to be romantic. It’s just the thought that matters.

 

Maybe I could start doing some sort of sales pitch for Hallmark or something. Hehehe…

 

Maybe peer pressure has gotten to me.

 

Maybe I just want presents. Haha…

Diet Plan           : Day 16++++++++

Weight loss      : -1.5kg (yoohoo..... but i think i gained it all back again today)

Workout            : None!! aahahahah....

Food intake      : Don’t ask!

Countdown      : 5 months 17 days

 

Sorry for the long silence. Don’t ask.. So I’m gonna try to sum up what I’ve been basically been up to in the past month or so.

First things first though.... HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!  hahaha.. gile belated! who cares?!

 

Ok.. here’s the dirt. I’ve been on a diet for the past 2 weeks. DAMN STRICT DIET I TELL YOU!! Hence... the 1.5 kg weight loss. The pain i tell you... the struggle.... the torture!!! And all for what? One point bloody five kilos!! Ugghhh....... That’s it? Tak  puas hati betui. But to make up for it, I’ve managed to reduce 5cm all over. That’s a start eh?  Apparently I’m the type that builds muscle mass easier  (what muscle I hear you ask... :p) and we all know muscle is heavier than fat. Or so that’s what they tell me or let me believe. FUCK

 

So I figured.... I’m trying to lose all this access weight for the wedding right? I don’t want the damn pelamin to topple over (to myside) or mulut-mulut makcik-makcik yang patut more like pot (calling the kettle black!) to buat bising la. Plus I don’t want to put dear Mr Cookie (God bless his metabolism) to shame la. What’s my point? Well.. who’s gonna know how much I’m gonna weigh when I get on the pelamin right? Unless they have a bloody weighing scale for a pelamin right?!?! Which is definitely NOT going to happen if I have any say. So I just figured.. the hell with my weight. As long as I lose the inches, I’m fine. I think.

 

Just two and half inches to go!

 

Hmm.. what else? Oh.. did I tell? I have a nephew now. Ishmael Addeen. Comel.  Note the spelling. Macam dlm Moby Dick tak? ahahah... ish.. ish.. ish...

 

Ok. Am watching Anugerah Juara Lagu right now. A strange thought came to mind just now while M. Nasir was performing. Don’t you think that M. Nasir looks a lot like Anuar Zain... if Anuar was more manly or straight?  Oh forgive me Bang Nuar  for such comments. But I think it’s like a compliment.... ke?

 

House Season 2 is coming to an end... sad, sad. But CSI Season 7 in coming in February. Yay to that!

 

So that’s that. In a nutshell... maybe enough for another month? wahahahahh... kot

 

Oh ye.. what do you think of this baju.... cantik tak?

 

Diet Plan                          : Day 16

Weight loss                     : +2kg (WTF?!?!!!!)

Workout                           : Aerobics

Food                                  : Roti Telur

Countdown                    : 6months and 25 days to go

 

I don’t get it. I gained weight as opposed to losing it. Sheeshh.. and this is with me exercising and controlling my diet. I wouldn’t mind it that much if I gained weight for NOT exercising.. at least there’d be an excuse. But this? Maybe I’m not made for exercise. I should go on Oprah. huk huk... am seriously thinking of alternatives for  weight loss... how much is liposuction nowadays? heh

 

Oh ye.. Met the ex for lunch today.  It was a weird feeling to see him there; sitting right in front of me. Ughh... I’m not sure if it was a good or a bad weird. It just felt weird. Apparently he’s happily married and finally ‘getting some’. Shheessshh itu pun mau cerita ka? Nak compare notes ke? Hahahahaha..... I just wonder if he’s getting ‘it’ right cause it seems that he’s sharing a little too much details with me – like I need to know la kan?

 

So I’m still friends with my Ex.  And as far as I know and hope, Mr Cookie is okay with it, as long as we all know where we stand la kan. I’m lucky I guess.  Contrary to what many believe,  keeping in touch or being friends with the ex ain’t that bad.  Just needs a little adjusting in the beginning and also a little maturity, that’s all. But obsessing over your ex’s partner... (haha!) now that’s bad!!!!! Kan CikP?

 

Diet Plan             :  Day 2

Weight  loss        : 0 kg

Workout               : Jogging and swimming

Food intake         : Beef Foldover (arrgghh) and Grilled Fish with Butter rice (gulp!)

Countdown         : 7 months and 11 days

 

As you can see… the diet plan is on. Setting a more realistic goal now. I’m gonna measure it month by month. We’ll see. By the end of the year there should at least some improvement. *crosses fingers*

 

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There’s something about being engaged. I’ve always thought that it’d be pretty much the same as to when we were just going out. It was just a change of titles, instead of just being the ‘girlfriend’, you’re now the ‘fiancee’. Instead of being more than just friends, you’re the betrothed one. But basically, feelings and personality would still be the same, because it is the same person right?

 

But boy, was I wrong!

 

I know I have changed. My mood swings have become horrible. Sensitivity towards trivial things have become heightened. Picking fights, arguing, temper and crying. I seriously do not know what’s come over me. This is not me and I don’t like it. It’s like something inside you just doesn’t want to drop the issue or look the other way even though you know that it’s really a small matter and not worth mentioning. But something just won’t let you let go. That something just wants it to be magnified; over dramatize it. Uugghh… I don’t like it, but I still do it.

 

And to think that we’re only a month into this whole engagement thing.

 

God! I’m scared. Scared of myself. Scared of what I might do or say.

 

ROCKY 6 IS COMING OUT SOON!!!!!!

Tak sabarnye!!! Seronoknye!!!! When I heard the theme song playing in the cinema.. my heart started pounded. No music has ever sounded so good!! - cept maybe Abang Anuar I nye lagu la kot.. hehe..

Bestnye!

Ok.. so the battle of the bulge has started (again!). I'm drawing out a plan to lose the flab... and this one involve the MOTHER!! HAHAH... so that's pretty much fool proof. Setting short term goals.. and realistic ones also (that Jessica Alba body will have to wait for a while.. need to get to a Drew Barrymore state first) .

No slimming pills, no miricale shakes, no expensive gyms, no excuses. Just the good ol (and proven) daily jog and sit ups.

The plan has been drawn.. the goal set... its execution time!! Wish me luck!!!

Still can't believe that I'm actually tunangan orang. eheh... who would've thought?

Whew... what can I say?

I am now officially someone's fiancee. Heheh.. weird. Finally it's happened to me. So.. alhamdulillah. 50% dah lepas.. now it's the homerun.

It felt kinda strange for me as I was walking down the stairs before nak sarung cincin. More like surreal. I remember the thoughts going through my head. Oh my God.. this is it. This is actually happening to me. Me. All attention was on me. Wow. That has never happened before. It felt really strange.

Seeing the video/pics, tersebak jugak rasa. To think that earlier in the year, I never thought that this would happen. To think that I started the year as a single gal with no commitments, and now?  And to think that this wonderful guy was underneath my nose all this while? Wow.. God does work in mysterious ways.

And.. I must say the biggest THANK YOU to Masnie and Dayat for introducing us. All of this wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for you guys... and that one sms. Hehehe...

B, olive juice a million trillion times. I thank God everyday for you. Olive juice.

Guys!!! Im ENGAGED!!!!

Pictures have been uploaded.... click ==> HERE